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after the storm

There have been a few windy days and stormy days of late. I wouldn't say it's limited to the external world. In fact, I have gone through quite a lot of inner turmoil. We can't see the wind, but we can see the effects of the wind. In the same way, I might appear fine on the outside- able to smile, make jokes, but on the inside, the effects of the turmoil cannot be dismissed. Or I might be so worried about other people, and feel like i can't help them that it hurts.

Showing your love to me

How can I show support to you? Sometimes we feel like we can't ask someone else to support you in a specific way. Who said we can't? Of course, when it's  demanded, there can be negative consequences, but when we genuinely need something, and we tell people that this is what we prefer, then what is the harm in that? 

After 10km

My favorite Chinese word is 迷茫, which translates to, perplexed. I was feeling so perplexed today. It was a feeling of general uneasiness that stemmed from my body and my heart. I found it extremely difficult to concentrate, to be productive. Made sure I had some food to see it it was my sugars. But who was I kidding, I knew it was because I had a lot on my mind. 

By mid afternoon, I was convinced that a 10km run would solve everything. I usually slow jog 5km several times a week. a) for general fitness b) to escape my work, I always come back more productive c) to spend some time with God d) all of the above. However, today, today called for something more extreme. There were things in my heart weighing me down. 

Wisdom to know the difference

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
Courage to change the things I can,
And wisdom to know the difference. – Reinhold Niebuhr



When the road ahead seems tough, there are grey clouds up ahead, does this mean that God wants us to stop going forward? Or does he want us to keep going? 

A brand new start

It's always exciting beginning a new journey. You may start to imagine the destination, plan what you want to do once you get there. But a lot of the fun is in the process, the journey itself.

Today, is the start of a brand new journey. This is a brand new blog where I will share my faith, even if it's as small as a mustard seed. The future looks so much brighter and full of hope when I know the Lord is there to guide me.