40 before 40 with #funwithmrabear

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Since Mr A Bear and I are of the same age, it was a great idea to brainstorm a list of 40 things we wanted to do together before 40.

Here is the beginning of our list...

1. Kiss in front of the cinderella castle in disneyland.
2. Brave the cold together and see the Northern lights
3. See our best friend Jenny get baptized
4. Attend each others wedding
5. Read the whole bible together
6. Kayak on a glass bottom kayak
7. Make lasagna together- 23/5/17
8. Grow a tree together
9. Serve together - EMP 30/4/17
10. Watch the stars in Grand Canyon together
11. Cruise Alaska together
12. Eat at a hatted restaurant together - Il Centro 4/4/17
13. Get our open divers licence
14. Minimum one hike a month
15. Climb all three bridges together- Auckland 2017 done. Sydney and Brisbane to do.
16. Kiss on top a Ferries Wheel- 2017.

A renewed focus- defining a new purpose

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It's been at least a decade since I've charted my life's purpose with the "Purpose driven life" book. I think it's come into good timing in this season for my life to re-explore what purpose God has for me right here and now.

I'm halfway through the current study with my new buddy Mr A Bear and already I have re-discovered a few things. Firstly, if I was looking for a purpose to make my life richer, faster, greater, and more amazing, I'm looking in the wrong place, because the book opens with saying that it's not about me. We were designed by God, for God's intended purpose. And everyone will have a different take on that. We were made for worship, for community, relationships, but not for ourselves.

It's so funny though, we go into relationships thinking what is in it for me, or we go into church thinking how is this going to fill me. This refocus has helped me realise what has been missing in my life for the last 2 years. Service, connection and community. Yes, I can worship and love God with all my heart, mind, soul, and yes, I can love others as Christ loved us--- or at least try to. But we were never made to do this on our own.







Reflecting on 2016, and looking forward to 2017

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2016 was an eventful year.

There were many tears. I have had to say goodbye to so many people. My beloved grandma (I still remember standing on the cliff top, receiving the phone call and breaking down in tears, my weekly practice of calling my grandma is still so engrained in me, I miss her laughter, I miss teasing her to make her angry, and I miss sleeping on her bed when she isn't watching), my adopted church grandma (I miss you running after me at church, your radiant smile and the way you made church feel like home)... many of my friends also had breakups with their long term partners.

I had some pretty ambitious plans for my job, love and life. And this week's sermon spoke to that. I put my ladders up in the wrong place, so even if i was succeeding, I wasn't succeeding in the right things.

And so at the end of it all, i'm not praying for my will be done, but I'm looking forward to the adventure of 2017 where HIS will will be done.