40 before 40 with #funwithmrabear

Since Mr A Bear and I are of the same age, it was a great idea to brainstorm a list of 40 things we wanted to do together before 40.

Here is the beginning of our list...

1. Kiss in front of the cinderella castle in disneyland.
2. Brave the cold together and see the Northern lights
3. See our best friend Jenny get baptized
4. Attend each others wedding
5. Read the whole bible together
6. Kayak on a glass bottom kayak
7. Make lasagna together
8. Grow a tree together
9. Serve together - EMP 30/4/17


A renewed focus- defining a new purpose

It's been at least a decade since I've charted my life's purpose with the "Purpose driven life" book. I think it's come into good timing in this season for my life to re-explore what purpose God has for me right here and now.

I'm halfway through the current study with my new buddy Mr A Bear and already I have re-discovered a few things. Firstly, if I was looking for a purpose to make my life richer, faster, greater, and more amazing, I'm looking in the wrong place, because the book opens with saying that it's not about me. We were designed by God, for God's intended purpose. And everyone will have a different take on that. We were made for worship, for community, relationships, but not for ourselves.

It's so funny though, we go into relationships thinking what is in it for me, or we go into church thinking how is this going to fill me. This refocus has helped me realise what has been missing in my life for the last 2 years. Service, connection and community. Yes, I can worship and love God with all my heart, mind, soul, and yes, I can love others as Christ loved us--- or at least try to. But we were never made to do this on our own.

Reflecting on 2016, and looking forward to 2017

2016 was an eventful year.

There were many tears. I have had to say goodbye to so many people. My beloved grandma (I still remember standing on the cliff top, receiving the phone call and breaking down in tears, my weekly practice of calling my grandma is still so engrained in me, I miss her laughter, I miss teasing her to make her angry, and I miss sleeping on her bed when she isn't watching), my adopted church grandma (I miss you running after me at church, your radiant smile and the way you made church feel like home)... many of my friends also had breakups with their long term partners.

I had some pretty ambitious plans for my job, love and life. And this week's sermon spoke to that. I put my ladders up in the wrong place, so even if i was succeeding, I wasn't succeeding in the right things.

And so at the end of it all, i'm not praying for my will be done, but I'm looking forward to the adventure of 2017 where HIS will will be done.

Movie review: Finding Dory (2016) DVD

Finding Dory (2016) is out on DVD next month, it would make a fantastic Christmas gift!

I loved finding Nemo when it came out because it spoke about the importance of family, friendship and adventure. Finding Dory follows a very similar story line but yet it was different enough to entice me.

I absolutely loved it, I laughed and cried and laughed and cried some more. In this hunt for my own family, one that I haven't met yet, i'm searching for a sense of belonging.

on point

Apparently "on-point" is the same as spot on. I've been working with clients on the "bullseye" values chart lately and the idea is that you plot where your values, how important they are to you and then mark how closely you are living according to those values. When you are on point, you basically are living exactly according to those values.

On personal reflection, there are several areas of my life in which are on-point and several areas that are so far apart from where I want it to be.

Areas I think I'm doing well in:
- Travel
- Adventure
- Work
- Family
- Friends

Areas I need to work on:
- My relationship with God
- My own family -- haha, need to find a partner first.

I think the bullseye is great to use to determine the next decision in your life. Will making the next decision lead you closer to your values or pull you further away?

Life is short

Feels good to go to bed exhausted. I wonder if I can find a like minded person out there that lives life to its fullest!

Live it well- switchfoot

I want to live it well
I want to live it well
Take the burden from my arms
Take the anchors off my lungs
Take me broken
And make me one
Break the silence and make it a song
Life is short I want to live it well
One life, one story to tell
Life is short I want to live it well
And you’re the one I’m living for
Awaken, oh my soul!
Every breath that you take is a miracle
Life is short I want to live it well
I want to sing with all my heart a lifelong song
Even if some notes come out right and some come out wrong
’Cause I can’t take none of that through the door
I’m living for more than just a funeral
I want to burn brighter than the dawn
Life is short I want to live it well
One life, one story to tell
Life is short I want to live it well
And you’re the one I’m living for
Awaken, oh my soul!
Every breathe that you take is a miracle
Life is short I want to live it well
I got one life
And one love
I got one voice
But maybe that’s enough
’Cause with one heartbeat
And two hands to give
I got one shot
One life to live
One life to live
Every breath you take is a miracle
Life is short I want to live it well
Gangs of Palomar Publishing / Penny Farthing Music (ASCAP) c/o The Bicycle Music Company

10 years ago today

In our weekend catch up, a bunch of friends who have been friends for 10 years now, had a reflective discussion.

What did you think you would be able to accomplish by today, 10 years ago? What achievement are you most proud of?

The questions and their answers were so thought provoking, especially since I've grown up with these people over the last 10 years. Have I accomplished all that I thought I would? No. I have accomplished more than I think I would in different areas of my life, the things that were important to me then, are less important to me now though. God is truly magnificent as he slowly reveals his plans for me in my life. I look forward to spending the next 10 hopefully with the same group of friends.